elektra

2009-05-11T00:49:00.003+08:00

i feel so fucked up right now and im just fucking jealous that youre everything a guy wants. iknow im sposed t be yr friend but its pressurisingto have to live up to someone like you. i liked tha guy and its so apparent he likes you. sometimes i think youre just acting innocent. but how can i say this? i sposed t be yr friend? and now that we're in duff institutions, no doubt you guys are growing closer tgth but im growing apart. maybe im just that invisible. it hurts like damn bloody fuck ah. an im in this alone bodoh

2009-05-09T20:11:00.002+08:00

went to bukit timah with family earlier. monkeys were mating on a lorry, in full view of everyone. hakim's pollylop got snatched by another monkey. got him another one and another monkey attempted to take it from him but mum scared her off. monkey was mad at mum. we made our way to the car, a baby monkey made this sound at me and there were three other monkeys checking out another monkey's ass. &oh, i can't wait for 2013 cus the end of the mayan calender isnt the end of the world. if the world wants to end, let it end. prophecies like these are scams. people have been shooting so many dates and we've lived past them all. if it's true okay, my bad. if it's fake go suck monkey balls, seriously go find better things to do. yes knowing the date of the predicted end of the world scares me shitless but i'm no believer of no mayan calender.

killers

2009-05-09T00:46:00.003+08:00

"help me get down
i can make it help me get down
if i only knew the answer,
&if all our days were numbered,
then why do i keep counting?"

warm fuzzeh feelin me ezz goin nutzzz
hate this, &i'll love you

2009-05-07T23:04:00.006+08:00

i wonder why the hell people click on stupid links on Windows Live Messenger like wtf. -.- effing annoying bodoh tu pop up.

unsuccessful attempt at meeting the girls earlier. had to go home early. pfffffft right. i don't know what else there is to say. &now i know why i have never been updating my blog regularly in the past. [cus there's no sheez to say my dear. kay whatthehell is wrong with my english -.-].

okay now, we shall end this stupid post with two massively stupid old photos:

NOT A SCENCE KID LA IDIOT!

PLEASE TERMINATE THE THING IN RED. AHHHH MY EYES HURT FROM SEEING IT

(popular kid in high school? let me barf on you. im laughing and rolling on the floor and my ass is out cus i laughed too hard after seeing your facebook result. HAAA HAAAA HAAA YOURE A JOKE MANXZXZXZXZXZX)

mas selamat recaptured -.- seriously, kau brani buat brani tanggung la. dah tua gi mampos sudah

eis sucks

2009-05-06T00:30:00.002+08:00

EIS SUCKS AND LUCKY WE'RE DONE WITH IT.

gobbledygook, i have no idea what to say. i love dancing bananas. they don't dance. i just like to think that they do. my cat farts a huge stinking bomb. i dont't know why i blog. i find it pointless. purple dinosaurs are so gay. i used to love that purple dinosaur as a kid. i think my mind is screwed up. WOOHOOHOOHEEHEEHEEHAAHAAHAA.

& ouch my eyes effing hurts like ZOMGFCKGASSNESS. its teary and stingy and ouchy. no, i don't watch porn [ain't no horny ass yo].

2009-05-05T08:55:00.000+08:00

we are the fabrication

2009-05-04T23:06:00.004+08:00

[EDITED]

I GIVE UP

raw emotions download

2009-05-04T21:44:00.004+08:00

this is the first time i've ever updated with raw emotion. don't get used to it. & this is 5months overdue. i believe i'm okay now.

i sometimes wonder whether you even remember who i am. i really wasn't intent on recalling what happened but i was sitting there doing nothing and my mind couldn't help but wander. i honestly thought you were different [oh, ow cliche that sounds]. i could read you like a book, just like you could me. we're going into the 5th month of ignoring each other and no doubt, it hurts like effing hell. but it's impossible to let go. if you knew this was ever going to happen, why did you even bother to text me everyday? to tell me your secrets? to whine and complain and act like what you're not around your friends? i can't believe you left without a word. no explanation no nothing. i was stupid. i fell for your dumbly sugarcoated words. i actually thought 'It Was You' was really meant for me. you know i don't love easy. you know i don't trust either. you should know perfectly well how i am cus that's exactly how you are. what about our stupid promises? call me nuts for remembering this but you'd text me the most unimportant, menial, lamest things that somehow always managed to make my days. you and your "i'd rather be raped by monkeys!" & "help! hippo texting me!". you love dragonforce just as much as i do. okay you know what? i suck. i suck for missing you. i suck for having fallen for you. i suck for having stood by you through it all. &i suck like a giant vacuum for missing you. why? because i know you don't give a shit. because i know you have no memory of me. because you're just as heartless as i used to be. because somehow, you have managed to get under my skin more than anyone ever couldn't. & i should let you go cus the phone that stored the memory of you, is dead. just like you are.

he was a warrior of one,
saviour of none

geek kepe sak

2009-05-03T17:35:00.003+08:00

i swear i had something to say just a while ago. but too bad i have STM. so i'll and this post with something awesome taken from METAL HAMMER

Tim McTague says ;

“People might associate us with Avenged Sevenfold because they’re pissed republicans and ‘so metal’, but they’re a gimmick, they’re a circus. They can play [corrected] but they can’t write songs. What’s worse is the way they look. If you need to have make-up and crappy names like Synyster Gates to sell records, then you shouldn’t be here. That’s not rock’n’roll to me. Arena rock maybe, but not real rock’n’roll. If you’re basing yourself on how cool you are or how many girls you can trick into thinking your band is cool you can just… take that home. I’m not saying that’s what Avenged Sevenfold do, but they do a lot of crap that makes me think, ‘that’s why you and us will never be the same’. At the same time, we don’t write a really heavy record ‘just to show all those Avenged Sevenfold fans what real metal is like’

2009-05-02T13:32:00.002+08:00

i am not as strong as i used to be
i don't work well under pressure like how i usually do
i now fear people when it used to be the other way around
i don't know what is happening
i want this to stop
but too bad it never will
&
THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT

2009-05-01T00:59:00.003+08:00

true colors are coming out now but i think x is an okay person after all. to summarise today, i woke up late for IS class. took a cab to school. costed $18.10 . class was okay. Mr F isnt cute isnt hot but ive set my sights on him. went home. went out w mum. came home. took a quick shower. was 4.30 already. took cab again. was $7. was a pretty average day but on a lighter note, the outing with the girls was awesome although Jelly had to leave half way thru. anyhoos, hanging out with Munchy and Mary at Swensens and Starbucks led to enlightenment on certain things and i sooooo want the photos okay. we ate, talked, camwhored, starbucked, talked, webcamwhored. this should totally be carried out again but lets have all 6 of us (:

& oh your shallowness needs to stop. you don't realise how much you're hurting people who really hasnt harmed you. its a cheap shot honey. the trust you think you have managed to gain is just a bullish facade. quit this. we're in poly now.

2009-04-28T18:45:00.000+08:00

today could have been a perfect day if it was not for those irritating delivery van drivers. i was looking like a student who just came out from rolling in a frying pan, with my hair in a mess so i don't get why the freaking hell you guys bothered to make a u-turn to chase me. and seriously, i won't degrade myself that much to actually respond to your stupid whiny nasal voices. okay, negativity aside, I WANT NOBADY NOBADY BACHU!

thursday timbre with 1lo3. i hope formula x dosen't turn up. i'd puke out huge slugs if she were there

this is how i disappear

2009-04-27T23:59:00.003+08:00

this is how i disappear

lying in bed, i think about all that's happened in the past. no doubt, i was a horrid person - maybe i still am. but i am trying to change my ways. it's just that certain traits are so hard to get rid of. because im too egostistical. because im too proud. but im only human. &im trying to change. i thankyou ever so sincerely for having been able to look past my shortcomings, forgive me after all that i've said - all that i've done. it feels as if a great weight has been lifted from these shoulders. it's a full circle now &i don't think words can express my gratitude. this is , the start of something new.

__

&bestfuck, iknow you're strong enough to face all the challenges that life has to offer. you've made it this far with and/or without me. just know that nothing can bring you/us down and lets get this over with. we'll make it through together. no matter how long it takes.

2009-04-26T09:59:00.001+08:00

we are the image of the invisible

you all believe

2009-04-25T14:19:00.000+08:00

you all believe
you all believe
that love is gonna save us
but nothing good comes from it.
trust me

you all believe
you all believe
that love is coming to you
but it's your death, you’ll finally see

2009-04-22T00:30:00.002+08:00

• so many obligations, so little time

• japanese tomorrow / today. i am so nuts mental pressurized insane fucked grumpy sick moody and everything you can think off.

• get well soon bestfuck

• suddenly attracted to a mat who has super fair skin & a foreigner?!?

• detached

21042009

2009-04-21T22:27:00.006+08:00

i am going mental with all these things going on. [and oh, he isn't cute, he isn't hot but idkw i find myself looking at him all the time. plus, he has moobs, which are really unflattering but i love his accent and i think that pretty much sums it up. stop dreaming la dyana. pimple klua melambak baru tau. later so unglam] in conclusion i am a mess once again & i feel effing useless

& i haven't eaten since yesterday at 1230hours. the nasi lemak totally spoiled my appetite and i effing can't eat.

i'm letting myself fly so very high
& i'm gonna fall so very hard

stop it already la. what bugs me the most is that i don't know what's bugging me. it just isthis is fucking bullshit

2009-04-21T00:00:00.002+08:00

STICK STICKLY

woomameh

2009-04-17T20:32:00.003+08:00

1.Were you smiling when you woke up this morning?
- no. i was drooling
2. When was the last time you met someone new?
- on wednesday
3. When did you last eat pizza?
- during the outing with the girls
4. Do you drink beer?
- nah
5. Do you wash your own clothes?
- neh
6. Are you any good at poker?
- nooh
7. What do you want more than anything?
- my own dslr
8. Are you tired?
- kind of
9. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?
- my graffiti-ed wall
10. Pepsi or Coke?
- coke
11. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
- depends
12. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
- kinda
13. Taco Bell or McDonald's?
- i only ate taco bell once
14. Are you restless?
- kinda
15. Is your computer desktop or a laptop?
- i hvnt touched my desktop since sectwo
16. How many friendster views do you have?
- friendster is for dickheads
17. Want to be a prince/princess?
- i wna be a greek god
18. Do you believe dreams come true?
- no
19. Last song you heard?
- baa baa black sheep
20. Do you like Batman?
- No.
21. Who is in the room with you?
- no one
22. what are you wearing on your ankle?
- my skin
23. What was the last thing you ate?
- pringles
24. What were you doing before this?
- ipod
25. What is the closest item near you that is blue?
- my jwss shorts
26. In your opinion what is the weirdest thing listed on ?
- asking me whether i can stand on my thumb
27. What instant messaging service do you use?
- windows live messenger
28. what is ur fav website?
- gee, idk
29. Whose house were you at last night?
- parents
30. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
- neither. i wear underwear HAHA
31. What is the last movie you watched?
- the unborn -.- so the not scary. jumby baby(:
32. What do you currently hear right now?
- my kitten mewing
When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
- idk
34. Where's your favorite place to be?
- idk if its a place but its when im asleep
35. Have you ever heard of the band Our Lady Peace?
- just like i've heard of Your Nanny Pees
36. Where do you sleep?
- in the toilet bowl
37. Where do you shop the most?
- shops
38. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
- school
39. Coach Purse or NFL game tickets?
- coach
40. Where was your default pic taken?
- at my graffiti-ed wall
41. Why did you pick your background?
- cus i picked it
42. Are you happy with where you are?
- im as happy as a bumble bee wheeeee
43. Do you believe love at first sight exists?
- no fool
44. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
- maybe
45.Do you believe that you can change someone?
- im like the most influential person la
46. What are you going to do after you do this survey?
- stone
47. Who you gonna past this quiz to?
- your slap happy grandpappy

gee the person who made this quiz really has poor english

2009-04-16T21:22:00.001+08:00

you beach

scheduled outrage

2009-04-16T13:54:00.002+08:00

scheduled outrage

school will be starting pretty soon and i'm partially excited and scared. went for MDE's Freshman Orientation Programme yesterday and it was kind of fun& LMGT's 1L03 students seems to be a pretty awesome bunch. my timetable's pretty screwed for wednesday but i love my tuesdays and thursdays. asidahberdidah, i don't wanna go school can? on monday we bring scooters ahhhhh. lame ah need walk farfar. pfffffffffft

2009-04-14T23:25:00.003+08:00

there are only two types of FEAR that exist

rational and irrational

a fear of heights is rational. a fear of realtors, isn't.

i have never said i was always right. i won't even bother

2009-04-14T11:07:00.002+08:00

just 5 minutes ago, a rude fuckface knocked on my door. heres what happened

fuckface: assalammualaikum nak beli muffin?

me: waalaikumsalam mak takde . kat toilet

fuckface: tkpe la pegi tanye mak nak beli tak

me: tak tkpe

fuckface: nak beli tak? (his face dah irritated. seems like he's effing retarded cus i ALREADY SAID no)

i wanted to say " i'm not at liberty to spend mum's money without her permission" but since i figured he wont understand and that my malay is weak i just said : tkpe tkya

fuckface: astarghfirullah (shakes head then jeling me)

pissed by his poor salesmanship, i slammed the door in his face and shouted "i dont have to buy what you sell la asshole" (org kt luar can hear org terjerit kt pintu).

so the lesson today is, you dont demand respect from me. you earn it, bitch

seventeen forever

2009-04-13T23:18:00.000+08:00

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
& that's wonderful, and that's life
& we are
Free

under bestfuck's great weight (:

bestfucks forever [cliche line, iknow]

i give a new meaning to ugly

oops, naddz ter-cut

madwoman

tangan gw retarded loh

kay my hands are really retarded. idk what they're doing

GROUPSHOT

powerpuff girls (:

bestsuck kepe

elektra lee

WE WON'T BE

SEVENTEEN FOREVER

& WE CAN GET AWAY WITH THIS

TONIGHT (:

i love my people

flyer

2009-04-13T00:48:00.000+08:00

went to jb, did the usuals. bought rojak west coast. naik hantar balik. headed for singapore flyer. was nothing. and i believe that the height would only be daunting if i had to climb out and down the capsule on a rope. pretty much sums up my day.

with school starting soon and situations changing, i still appear unfazed by it all. maybe it hasnt occured to me yet, how real and true all this is.

hapus aku

2009-04-12T01:37:00.000+08:00

yakinkan aku Tuhan dia bukan milikku
biarkan waktu hapus aku.

i'm proud to say you cease to exist in my world

pressure

2009-04-10T15:27:00.000+08:00

some things i will never know
&i have to let them go

he once said to me " it was you
that showed me who i am
& taught me how to stand
for what i know is real "
i guess i was real then, and no longer real now. that's why you disappeared, right?

pain in the ass
school is stArting

2009-04-09T23:07:00.000+08:00

hello there, the angel from my nightmare
the shadow in the background of the mourge
the unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
we can live like jack and sally if we want

fly me to the moon & let me sing among the stars. let me see how spring is like, on jupiter and mars

2009-04-09T19:28:00.000+08:00

1. when all the pieces fall apart, i will be the only one who knows
2. when i fall, i fall hard
3. i watch ben10
4. since i got my levis, i've only worn them six times. and they're two years old
5. i love red and white and black and grey
6. at 16 & 3/4, i still have not completed reciting the quran
7. i love to play with bubbles
8. i want an older brother
9. i cannot take jokes that don't make sense
10. i wish i could see things from a different perspective
11. i have a feeling that people are talking about me even when they're not
12. i want to be able to eradicate poverty, racism, sexism and stupidism
13. i will get rid of people with stupid mentalities. which include procreating outside of marriage, taking pathetic drugs like horse pills, people who wear stupidly ridiculous floating hats where you "can simpan nasi lemak kat atas" , people who think the whole world is about them and get suicidal cus other people are too busy with their lives to eveb notice you and sick bastards that do horrid things to kids
14. i don't like to see ugly kids
15. when i see irritating faces, i have to turn to a good looking face to allow me to delete the face out of my memory
16. when people brush against me, i get disgusted and wipe myself and flick it somewhere or wipe it ob somebody else

am off t ngaji

2009-04-08T19:16:00.000+08:00

the outing with the girls was awesome and once i lay my hands on those photos...

I AM SINCERELY SORRY BESTFUCK FAYKID. PLEASE FORGIVE ME. I KNOW I WAS WRONG. IF JUMBY COME TAKE ME HOW?

&you fucking scheming cunt, i wish i could bash your face right in and put your fucking family to shame. when the hell did my family ever wrong you? cheebye. FUCK YOUR BABY AND ASSWIPE AND YOUR MAKCIK-PASAR-NAK-STEP-TAITAI-PUNYE MAK LA SIAL. you think you can put my mum down and expect me to swallow the shit? im going to do the same to you. only a million times worse. just you see, imma drive you MINDBLOWINGLYFUCKINGINSANE. only i have the permission to hurt my mum, dickhead. oh wak, acne mcm mane nk pronounce? ANE EH? BODOH PE SIAL. don't say i started this shit, i didn't. you went to tell the world and i believe two can play the same game you dirty dirty slut.

2009-04-06T19:45:00.000+08:00

i have moved from iwritesinsnottragefies-crackbrained to screwthatego to thispoliticalshit to ultimaclaw.wordpress/livejournal/blogspot and i've had countless urls.

the only thing(s) that my blog/blogs lack were
1) regular updates
2) ethics
3) proper posts

so could this be THE time i update regularly ? actually consider people's feelings? or update with proper posts? most likely not but who gives a shit kan? i apologise beforehand for any future harsh words, strong opinions/views. please enjoy youself while you're here. actually i couldn't care less.

okay to start the post of the day, my livejournal is still functioning (as if people actually bother). im superdeduperwowiezowie excited about tomorrow. the cavity (not my teeth - in me) ( as mentioned on livejournal ) is slowly healing and my bestfuck faykid's words has helped in one way or another. yes, our close friend intimidates me but that shouldn't deter me from anything. you, i'm buying your sweet words so shower me with them and make me one of those typical lovesick losers. hahah kay your dearly beloved feels like eating lasange so she will update tomorrow or the day after kay aliens? ciaoxz
(: